Author: meniamiclat

I'm the most cautiously impulsive person you'll ever meet. (& with the worst grammar too)

The Happy List

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Here are the things that’s making me happy lately;

1. GOD. I don’t realize this so often but I am beyond blessed, favored, and loved. I am incredibly happy to be back in God’s arms, once again.

2. This might be my shortest sembreak so far but it has been the most productive anyway.

3. My endless pursuit of God’s peace in this messy world.

4. New addition to my study-table-accessories: white board!

5. Tisyu! (It’s a tissue product hehe)

6. Having friends who are different from me. It helped me gain more experiences and understood their perspective in life and helped me broaden my outlook on life.

7. Facial care products 😀

8. New addition to our family, our dogs; trixie and marimar. Haha!

9. Finally cutting my hair shorter and I even changed my hair color, sa taas nga lang bleh epic fail

10. Spending time with my family and friends more.. 🙂

With the current situation of our country or even with your present situation, it might be a little too difficult to find the happiness that you want.. You may think that there’s no way out, or that it’s hard for you to be happy again. But rest assured, because God has offered us a better choice; find God’s peace and be in His arms, and learn that joy comes from the Lord. 🙂

4th yr, 1st sem in a nutshell;

The struggle of an accountancy student of HAU definitely do not start on the first day of class, it starts when you try to get a line number from the most polite security guard to pay for your most affordable tuition fee and from then on, everything is a battle.

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Oh come on! This picture has everything to do with my story, alright? This is not just a simple selfie-while-drinking-coffee photo. Aryt, let’s get into it.

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Just Maybe

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I found this manga long ago and to tell you the truth I was not eager to read it at all. Well, mainly because it’s still ongoing and I can’t stress enough how much it bothers me when I read an ongoing manga (except for one piece, like hello???) But yesterday, out of boredom, I went to mangafox site to find an interesting romance manga and then out of the blue (just like how yaya dub appeared right before alden’s eyes!!!!) I saw Orange (TAKANO Ichigo). I was immediately hooked with the story, which I prefer to not reveal because really I’m bad at making reviews/summary. I tend to spoil everything using one sentence. So to be clear guys, I am making a recommendation here.

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TAMANG PANAHON

As amazing as life can be, there are moments when you just feel like giving up completely. Letting every little thing that hunts you down to win and letting yourself drown with what could’ve been and what can never be.

Today is my birthday. I was trying to stop myself from posting something that I might regret later. For goodness sake, this day haven’t even started yet! But I couldn’t wait anymore.. You see, I have been carrying this heavy feeling in my heart for the past weeks. I have so many concerns, worries, and different kinds of frustrations in my life. Don’t get me wrong; I am truly grateful for everything that God has blessed me with. Without Him, I wouldn’t be here. Nothing would be here. It’s just that I am not happy. For whatever reason, I can’t feel anything but sadness in my heart.

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Almost there

When will I ever escape this place? It pains me that my second blog post will be about how much I hate my life as of this moment. I always loved being in control about everything but my life isn’t exactly as controllable as I thought it would be. Seems like more often than not I am the one who is being controlled. It’s frustrating and so depressing on my part. For that, I wanted to leave everything behind and be a whole new person. I wanted to explore more, make decisions by myself, make mistakes and learning how to confront them or I will cry because of a stupid decision that I made, but at least it was my own decision, at least I have every right to be mad to myself and I’ve got no one to blame. At least it is my life and I have every right to destroy or make myself successful.

It is my life and yet I am bound to follow someone’s point of view on how to run it. It is my life and yet I need to comply with everyone’s perception on how should I live it. It is my life and yet it isn’t.

I’ll make no excuses for leaving this blog for awhile because first, I don’t have any, and second, I’ve been too busy dealing with my life lately aka my reality.

The past three months has been mostly about school. My life, as boring as it is, came back with its usual routine but with a twist. I am now starting to realize that I am getting older and soon I have to act like an adult. Every night, I can’t help but to think about what I really want to do with my life. Yes, I am an accountancy student and I want to graduate, pass the board exam, and be a CPA. But lately, I’ve been wondering if I can really do it. There are a lot of accountancy students out there who are far more intelligent and confident than I am. Ang hirap kasi, e. It’s so hard to work to be on top when everyone else seems to get it in the easiest way. It seems unfair at nakakawalang-gana. Last semester, I lost my chance to graduate with flying colors. Not that I am hurt, I am just too disappointed with myself. Kung ginalingan ko pa sana, kung nagsipag pa sana ako, kung nagpuyat pa sana ako ng isa pang oras, at kung nagsagot pa sana ako ng isa pang problem, baka andyan pa, baka may chance pako, baka sakaling mas maging proud ang parents ko. 

Pero inisip ko nalang, may mas maganda sigurong plano si Lord sa aken. I have to let go some things in order to give space for something better. Ito talaga siguro yung pagiging adult; learning how accept things even if hurts, letting go of things that you can never change, and accepting the fact that not everything happens the way you want them to. I can’t say that I have learned a lot about life for the past nineteen years but now that I am almost tweenteen-y, I’ll try my best to experience life to the fullest. I still have a lot to learn. Madami pa, sobra. I am nowhere near my ideal self. Sabi nga sa PDPR, self-development is a long-term commitment. Kaya cheers to slowly becoming an adult, menia! Enjoy your journey! 🙂

U too, have a wonderful journey to whatever road you take! x

spiritualinspiration:

Jesus told the disciples in Matthew 10, “If anyone will not receive you or listen to your words, shake the dust off your feet and move on.” That’s what I’m encouraging you to do today. Don’t try to force a relationship that has ended. Shake the dust off your feet and move on. You don’t need the approval of everyone on this planet; you only need God’s approval. You don’t have to defend yourself because God is your defender.

Today, instead of focusing on what you don’t have, focus on what you do have. Focus on the relationships that are in your life. Invest in the people around you. Look for ways to sow love and encouragement. Thank God that He is opening doors for you. Thank Him for the right connections in your life. And thank Him for the gift of goodbye because He is ordering your steps and aligning you to walk in the place of blessing He has prepared for you!

The Happy List

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1. Passing the qualifying exam

2. The joy of knowing God more

3. Having new shoes

4. Watching my favorite animes

5. Spending time with my family

6. Getting back to my personal bubble space after 20 days

7. Doing nothing at all

8. and thus sleeping most of the time

9. or not sleeping at all

10. Purchasing new cute notebooks

11. Saab’s blog

12. Green tea, milo, hersheys, champorado, watermelon & mikmik

13. Not hearing my alarm clock

14. Diy’s, beauty tips & whatnot

Hope y’all had a wonderful summer vacation! xx

He left

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I was thinking of making a separate post about this one. But Mr. Procrastination got in the way and Mr. Brain cannot function properly since the qualifying exam. Besides, Mr. Heart is slowly moving on with all the frustration it felt since the breaking news. Yes, Zayn Malik officially left One Direction. Without any clues or preparation, he left us. I really don’t know exactly what I felt that day. I was confused, dumb-founded, disappointed, and most of all hurt.

You see, Zayn is my most favorite among the band members. At first, it was just about his good looks then I properly heard his beautiful singing voice then I discovered how unimaginably kind he is. In fact, he is the kindest member of the band (at least for me). He is a family man, a one-woman man, and a believer of God. He is not exactly as what the media presents to us. If you’re not a fan or you’re just someone who knows Zayn Malik you will probably think that he is a bad boy and a guy who smokes and does bad things. But I’m telling you, he is not. Well, he smokes (obviously) and he does bad things to other people who hurt his friends or family. I know he is not perfect and maybe that’s the reason why he kind of left us. He’s tired of all the issues that the media throws at him and his family, he’s tired of all the inconsiderate fans, he is tired of leaving his family behind during tours, and he is tired of making other people happy to the extent that he’s not happy with what he is doing anymore, and thus slowly losing himself.

Just like all of us, he is trying to find himself once again. It may not be the right thing for us (his fans) but maybe it is the right thing to do for him. I am not ultimately agreeing with his decision, you know. I am still hoping that he would come back to 1D again. But then, as I said, it’s not my (our) decision to make. And we do not obviously have the right to dictate him.

Anyway, I still wish you all the best Zayn and I hope this path that you chose will genuinely make you happy! I am still a fan you know! Let’s see where this direction can take us.

Love,

Your ultimate fan and forever nakama

Menia ❤

(Well, in the end I made a separate post eh? Hahaha!)